O.V.E.R.

I've come to realize, in the middle of the throws of a quarterlife crisis, I am also going through a divorce. For being someone who is eminently against divorce, it's quite ironic. But who is to blame when someone you thought was your soulmate was just a wolf in sheep's clothing? God, I sound like a 15 year old girl right now experiencing her first real heart brake, but in a way, I am still that 15 year old girl- it was around that time I gave him my heart to begin with. I just never thought I would ever get it back- and definitely not in the shape that it's currently in. So not only do I have to learn how to live with myself, I have to learn how to do it alone, without my best friend.

I cant remember the last time my heart hurt so bad.

Secondhand Serenade - It's Not Over

My tears run down like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you ' or is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over

I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

It's not over, it's not over, it's never over
Unless you let it take you
It's not over, it's not over, it's not over
Unless you let it break you
It's not over

So the video is a little bit morbid, sue me. I'm in a bit of a morbid melodramatic mood right now. Give me 5 minutes and I'll have the Goth girl under control.