Am I really going to be that girl that waits for his call?
Am I really going to be that girl who waits for his email?
Am I really going to be that girl who checks her Blackberry every 5 seconds?
4 years of training myself NOT to be that girl and look at me now. I've been down that road. I've taken a backseat. I've been 2nd and 3rd before and I can't do it again. Why am I grasping at the little bit of attention given and thinking that enough instead of demanding more? I cannot drive myself crazy waiting for him to recognize how amazing I am. I cannot have my life consumed by someone who doesn't appreciate me.
This is why I am so guarded.
This is why I won't let you in.
This is why I do things to purposely hurt you.
God, I need a hobby (that does NOT include reading books about knights in shining armor).
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Girl, it's like reading my own diary! That is me!! Don't you hate that??
Because You -- though beautiful, strong and smart -- are human.
No shame in being human. The alternative is rather depressing.
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