Friday, April 25, 2008

The downfall of moving 1200 miles away from home.

When you suddenly get light headed and nearly pass out on 34th street. At first it feels like a really big panic attack (I mean, you have been bitching there are too many people on the streets at lunchtime) but it doesn't stop. Figuring you need some sugar and a fountain diet coke would be amazing, you wander into a McDonalds sipping your delish drink and realize even after the sugar and the sustenance, if you choose to stand you will in fact pass out because there is no way in hell you can walk the avenue to your office. This is when you realize just how much it sucks to be alone in the city.

The only people you think to call are those in New Orleans who can do little more than tell you to go to the ER (which you flat out refuse- knowing your insurance sucks and knowing you already have a health problem and knowing you don't want to go unless someone holds you hand through it) and in the process you freak them out even more by calling them instead getting into a cab and going straight to the ER (which heaven only knows where one is) or back to work because maybe they would know what to do.

And hours later as you lay in your bed with the room continuing to spin and your head feeling like a fishbowl, you are a 26 year old with no one to cuddle with and make you feel better even if it is just laying next to you.

PS- If I die, someone please make sure Tori Amos makes it to the funeral to sing 1000 Oceans. Thanks!


Shoeaddict said...

OMG! I'm so sorry. We are gonna be friends, though, okay? We have stuff in common-

1) I'm from LA (I live here)
2) I pass out, get dizzy, have health shit
3) Must. have. fountain. diet. cokes
4)love the black and pink blog

Shoeaddict said...

Oh, and I LOVE Tori Amos, too

.Nicotine.Queen. said...

We can TOTALLY be friends, shoe addict!!
You rock my socks! Maybe we were twins in another life?

eastcoastdweller said...

Oh, I am sad to read of this misery. Hope Your blue funk blows away soon, like the bitter smoke of a cheap cigarette.

The Ambiguous Blob said...

I'm sorry you don't have people there for you. Soon though, you will.

Andie said...

hope you're feeling better. I had bad vertigo problems last year- all allergy/sinus related.
could be hormonal though.

Hope you start feeling better! :)

eastcoastdweller said...

Andie: Allergies and sinuses can lead to vertigo? I didn't know that -- scary stuff!

.Nicotine.Queen. said...

Oh, yes. Allergies and Sinus do a lot but I dont think that's what it was (I havent suffered from sinus or allergies since I moved up here, really- knock on wood)

And Andie knows everything, thats why I keep her around :-)