Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Dream a little dream.

One of my shelves collapsed after I put a box of my summer dresses on it. Honestly, I don't blame it, there were like 30 dresses in that box and it was heavy. So, in the process of cleaning my room, I made a bigger mess and it annoyed me enough to quit. Unfortunately, I can't leave it because I have guests coming on Friday.

To go along with this, last night I had a dream all of my shelves fell along with my clothing rod in my closet. I'm sure yall will say it was just my subconscious going over the previous days events, which you'll probably be right.

But I am interpreting that dream in a different way. I think it's the universe's way of telling me my life is falling apart. Even things (i.e. relationships) I thought were strong and sturdy (the rod in my closet) will eventually collapse. In the dream I said "Fuck it, I don't feel like dealing with it right now" and then it switched over to another sequence I don't quite remember as vividly.

Funny, that's exactly what's going on in my life right now. Deciding I am not in the mood to address the issue is also what I'm doing about the situation. My mind already shuts down and assumes the fetal position when I try to go back to that place. Is 4 years too much to ask for happiness? I'm not in a good place to have the floor fall out from under me. Please make it stop.

2 comments:

TN Girl Moving To New York City said...

It will get better! Believe me I have those days..wait months...quite frequently. I hate it when people tell me to "be positive" so I won't tell you that but I hope your day gets better.

iTeresa said...

Its this year, 2008 sucks for everyone, me & roomie are waiting slightly breathlessly for 2009 and a better year.....